Finally!

I have waited for this for so long. Now I finally can share with you all my experience, advice and personal thoughts by writing these books.
I have launched different of workout programs, e-books about my favorite tips and hidden secrets to get visible abs, and many other books.
I will soon also lauch a book about testosterone and my favorite healthy recipes to gain great results.

I am planning to also write a book about healing the gut and inflammation, auto-immune disorders like Rheumatoid Arthritis. Keep updated, all books will be published and sold here.

I always been grateful for small things. Being alive. Or not always. But since 13 y after I lost everything. I got hospilazed and 10 years of trauma, all those years every single morning just being alive or watching the sunset, breathing, getting a morning text was like everything for me. I never wanted to sleep because I wanted to do so much stuff and was scared if everything would be taken away from me again next morning. I would wake up again in the nightmare I went through.

I was depressed for so many years and I compared myself to everyone. I was sick at home and I could not do anything. I got burned out and my brain stopped working, my body said stop from moving out of the house. I was overwhealmed and everyone kept on asking, why do you not just take your shit together and go work?

I was a master at faking as a teenager.

I was born to never complain.

“Show them how strong you are, never let them see you shed tears”

”Get up, don’t cry, slap yourself in the face and continue the game”

”Don’t be like the other girls that cry on the football field”

It took me 15 years to start hugging people.

It took me 20 years to be able to cry.

Ok well maybe I did cry as a baby, alot probably. But then I was teached it was wrong, it was weak.

I am happy I got wise from the brainwash, I know being vulnerable and weak is not weak it is strength. But I still find it very hard, I rarely cry. Never actually. But I can, and I let myself be sensitive on the right moments. Nowadays I love being near amd touch a human body, be honest, be open, be truthful with people what I felt was very unnatural and immature as a kid.

I like the book ”The Magic” by Rhonda Byrne

Because they talk or write about all the things I learned while I was depressed.

To find the magical moments in life.

To be grateful of every moment.

Because actually, the moment you stop complaining and start being grateful of what you do have instead of what you do not have, you start to earn and get and achieve more and more.

Opposite, if you focus on every bad thing that is happening in your life, you will just get more and more tragedy.

So what do you choose?

Positivity.

Good vibes.

Of course.

Happiness is a choice mostly.

Lets choose to be happy, vulnerable, strong, open and not fake it, we only lose by doing that.

I am very open and personal on social media but something I haven’t talked much about to anyone is my struggle with my health right now.

To be honest I haven’t had a good day this whole year. I’ve been running from doctor to doctor with no kind of success. The last years I’ve been reading, studying and biohacking myself to get well, but everytime I think I found the conclusion, I get a slap on my face. One thing I promised to myself. If I ever get well again, I promise I will help every person in this world also with what I have learned during these years.

I am happy though. Life is beautiful. I love life. We all go through shit times sometimes but what is most important is our health. If you do not have that you do not have nothing. Be grateful of being alive for being able to move.

My RA is managable. My joints is most times healthy. My fingers and toes I can handle. My hormones works great. My period is normal. My vitamin levels are all perfect. My heart and lungs are healthy. I am well but the stomach pain I have had for the last three years is something I thought was never even possible for a human being to get. I do not stress. I do not smoke. I live very healthy and have probably done the most tests in this world. But I just seem to not get help.

Anyways, for me being alive and being able to workout means EVERYTHING for me. People has it so much worse, some things are too horrible to even understand what is happening in the world right now.

Just know all of us go through hard times, sometimes more and sometimes less.

Sometimes we can impact alot by own, but sometimes there is nothing we can do but pray.

Joy. Gratitude. Love. Amazement. Delight. Playfulness. Humor. Inspiration. Compassion. Hope. Creativity. Interest. Excitement. Enjoyment. Calmness. SAFE. Energy. Strength. Limitless. Focused. Healthy.

These are the things we feel, sometimes everyday, sometimes not for months.. these are the things that we should be grateful of and not take for granted.

I wish you some wonderful holidays. The time of the year no one should be alone. Keep your loved ones near and keep an eye on yourself and what you have, because in the other second it can be lost.

Good morning!

Paid collaboration with Eyracure

Long time since I wrote here.

It is cold and dry this time of the year. Days get shorter and darker. November is said as the darkest and shortest month in Finland. This affects not only our mood but also skin, hair, mm. (And also of course my rheumatism) I get so damn dry ! Feeling like a dry sponge with hair like hay, haha!

What is interesting, I got tipsed by this new treatment brush that is going to do magical tricks on your hair.

I personally avoid ALL heatening snd electronic tools for my hsir, I never dye it anymore and I was it once a week to keep it healthy and grow as much as possible. On the winter I also use MSM, D-Vitamin, Collagen, Zinc for my hair.

But now, this was a very interesting try out, because this brush is going to instead SAVE your hair and not RUIN it like all others devices does. I was to be honest a bit sceptical when I got it home, but damn girls!!! And long haired men! This is something damn good. This is magical. I would not be recommending it here otherwise. Im still amazed! Just check below of the before and after pics!

What is the ”magical brush”?

EYRACURE is a treatment created to pamper you and your hair. The starter pack contains everything you need to take the first steps towards healthier and more prosperous hair. Eyracure has been specifically designed to repair damaged hair and repair split ends. The treatment restores everyday wear and tear as well as damage from colouring, bleaching and heat styling. Already after a treatment, you will feel how the hair regains its natural shine and feels healthier and stronger.

The treatment takes less than 10 minutes, spray the treatment into freshly washed and towel-dried hair, then brush through with our BioLAP-20 brush and its custom light. Thousands of biological light-activated BioLAP-20 molecules rebuild and repair your hair again. The brush is designed to withstand hundreds of treatments.

EYRACURE works on all natural hair types as well as treated or colored hair.

How do you use it?

1. Wash with shampoo and rinse. Do not use conditioner.

2. Towel dry your hair until damp.

3. Spray the entire bottle of BOND REPAIR HAIR TREATMENT into the hair. Start with the tops.

4. Switch on BioLAP – 20 activator brush. Brush through the entire hair at least once.

5. Rinse hair with water.

6. Apply Hydrating Boost to the hair. Leave on for 3 – 5 minutes before rinsing

7. Wash out.

Something I definitely will continue to do as a treatment now and then when my hair needs a glow up from the death. 🙏😁

If you also want to try it, you can buy it on Eyracure on LYKOS website or here, using -15% off discount: FALL15

Because of what I’ve gone through in my past.. 2 different of ED, 3 suicide attempts and a long depression I never thought I would survive. With more diagnosis, surgerys and doctors appointments than anyone could imagine, I do not take life so seriously.

Yes, I think it is the most beautiful and important thing we have, like our health and body. But I do not stress about small things. More like I think ”Will this matter 5 years from now?”

Freedom is for me the most important for me.

I do not have rules, restrictions in life or big plans/goals to make. I am grateful of just living. I train and eat the way I crave and I like it this way. I would never want to live a life with restrictions and rules of how I can or can not live. I need to feel my freedom and the possibility to do what ever damn I want.

I lived a life full of rules and requirements. Every damn day. Yes it was nice for a moment until it became an obsession. I could never stick to a plan anymore, it just reminds me of the hell I went through. It eas just a daily struggle to be better and do more in everything in life.

It is good to challange youself and push yourself, but is not healthy anymore when it goes over the limit. You will notice the difference.

Balance is the key. When ever it is about training/food/work/money/school/obsessions or even being a parent.

Today, I know I am good and enough even if I would not do a single thing today. I am am just a human and I do not become more worthy by doing more. #youareenough

Watch the youtube video here.

Even if I spend most of my time alone, I never feel lonely. Ive lived 10 years without friends and I do not miss anything.

My life changed totally to the better when I cut off the negative and fake people from my life and started focusing on myself.

It is very rare to be real, world is full of fake people. I trusted so many persons in my life that I regret, but on the same time it teached me alot.

I feel whole alone, I dont need anyone in my life. Also have my family, they are everything for me. ❤️

I samarbete med Gutfeelinglabs

Minns ni då jag för två år sedan gjorde en tarmflora analys hos Gutfeelinglabs?

Nu är det dags igen! Mina magprobelm har inte blivit bättre, tvärtom sämre, men även om man inte har problem kan det vara bra att testa sin tarmflora regelbundet!

Vad är en tarmfora analys?

Genom att testa tarmfloran får du en analys på de goda och mindre goda bakterierna som finns i din mage.

Detta innehåller en tarmflora analys hos GUTFEELINGLABS

– Resultat över dina goda bakterier och gynnsamma bakteriefunktioner
– Kostråd baserade på ditt analysresultat och en individuell inköpslista för att gynna dina goda tarmbakterier
– Förekomst av potentiellt sjukdomsframkallande bakterier
– Förekomst av bakterier som kan vara associerade med hälsoproblem
– Råd om kosttillskott vid förekomst av bakterier associerade till ohälsa
– Möjlighet att se och jämföra dina resultat över tid

Jag rekommenderar starkt att göra en analys! Och nu får du hela 20% rabatt på tarmfloraanalys OCH GUTCLEAR med koden Svagtillstark20

(OBS du måste klicka på knappen ”Tillämpa” efter att de har skrivit in rabattkoden Svagtillstark20)

P.

And I don’t want it to be over.

I want to wake up to a few more sunrises.

I want to swim a few more laps.

I want to grill a few more marsmellows.

I want to run through a few more sprinklers.

I want to snuggle up on the balcony and watch just a few more late night movies outside.

I want to dance in the rain again.

I want so much more.

Please stay 😩 #summer

Throwback to Japan 2013, resan som förändrade mitt liv, för gott. Efter att jag låg på motorvägen, och försökte ta mitt liv, men jag räddades. Aldrig aldrig skall jag må så dåligt någonsin igen, och önskar ingen annan gör det heller.

Magen fortfarande i trubbel. I Thailand förvärrades det mer än någonsin förut, kul.

Besökte gastroskopin och tiotals gånger olika läkare i Koh Samui, där kom det fram att jag hade magsår, gastritis och inflammation. Men min läkare i Finland tror det är bara ”sjukdomar” som kommit på efterhand, och tror att själva problemet är SIBO.

SIBO (Small Intestinal Bacterial Overgrowth) är en tarmsjukdom som innebär att du har en överväxt av bakterier som i tunntarmen, som nar normalt återfinns i tjocktarmen. Bakterierna i tarmen hamnar i obalans och överväxt skapas. Symptom som sjukdomen ger magont, gaser och svullnad.

Vet inte vad jag ska tro. Vi tog inget test mot sibo utan först, tog jag en 2 veckors kur med Gutclear från Gutfeelingslabs, mycket förändrades i magen men problemen återstod.

Fick nu hem några stycken peptider, BPC-157. De som äger företaget där jag fått tag på peptiderna har själv tillfrisknat från magsår och det är tusentals människor som blivit av med värk i kropp, sömnproblem, brainfog och så mycket mer. För bra för att vara sant? Det var nästa sak jag prövade direkt enligt deras rekommenderade dos för mig, ska använda detta i några månader och se hur det ger effekt.

Läkaren ville dock att jag skulle börja antibiotika för SIBO direkt, jag var super super tveksam. Antibiotika är inget att leka med, inget man tar i onödan liksom, ville inte ta någon risk att bli värre än värst liksom, går det ens?

Men dum, otålig som jag är, började jag båda kurerna samtidigt. Kändes att jag inte orkar en dag till med värken i magen, och så kommer sommaren alltid lika snabbt och vill inte ligga inomhus med pina då alla andra njuter och sitter ute i det härliga vädret, som kommer så sällan här i Norden.

Så nu har det gått drygt 2 veckor, svårt att säga, vet inte alls var jag är just nu. Värk varje dag, reflux symptomer och kräkningar. Inge kul alls, men försöker hoppas och be om det bästa.

Som om någon skulle lyssnat på mina böner, fick jag ett erbjudande om att besöka en kinesisk medicinsk läkare till Helsingfors Ayurveda klinik, spännande, just nu i denna sekund är jag faktiskt påväg och hoppas på en räddning eller någon minsta lilla framsteg och hjälp, till min rheuma, aura eller helst av allt, mage!!!!

Wish me good luck 🙏

3 months, thank you for everything