Over working

I wrote this post on the summer.

Since the epidemic, I started working from home and if I am honest, I got a bit obsessed with working. When you work from home or as a freelancer, you do not have regular working- or free time, so I take all the time I got for work. All possible times, on the summer I even sometimes worked in the gym. That made me sad and realize that I am going over the limit, because I could not even give myself my own therapy, the best time on a day, for myself. I just thought about work, what I was missing or what I could do next.

That is sick haha..and I knew it myself deep inside but the feeling was irresistible.

I tried to leave my phone away even for an hour, but it felt like I was losing every opportunity of making money or working extra. (And when I am working out, I get so much inspiration and new ideas, my brain is working like fire!)

And you know, when you are at home you need to do the everyday stuff.. Like taking care of yourself, your home, family and pets etc. So It is either that or work. You probably know the feeling when you are writing or working nonstop and you can not even give yourself time to drink water or go to the toilet hahaha.. Or is it only me?

Because it is so hard to begin again, as hard it is to stop. Even if I knew I needed to do, and like a hundred things at home, but that made it even harder to stop working from the computer or the phone, that made it possible for me to work anywhere. My brain was so tired and my heart just screamed of free time even 10 minutes of taking sun or going for a swim?! No, always working. Need to work.

Work while eating, walking with my dog, taking a bath watching tv, on the bus for a business trip, lol everywhere and anywhere.

So, if I could not stop, how would I stop this obsession? The good part was that I knew myself I was going over the limit, I slept bad because I only thought about work and sometimes even working on the night. I got pain in the neck and back, my fingers was cramping, my eyes was red and dry from working non-stop I got even high blood pressure and cortisol. Yes, I did not have time to be social but because of the Epidemic, I did not see friends anyway. Buy the thing that saved me? It is pretty sad..My phone got broken. So that made me actually happy, because It forced me to stop. When my phone was at the apple repair center, I got time for myself and recover. I made a plan for myself and for the future. I made a time schedule and put regular alarms, so I would remember to take free time. I also made regular days off and vacation. That saved me and my health. Thank god.

Even if I am still a bit overworking, I give myself free time and it is so much giving myself new energy and mindfulness like going for a media free weekend/week to the sea, or taking a day off, putting the phone and computer on flight mode etc. Asking for help etc, but not help, so I could get more time for work, no.. Ask for help, so that I could get more time for myself and time to recover, relax (and ofc time for my family and pet). Another thing that helps is Meditation(without any meditation apps or music) Meditation from the nature.

Time on my own, and choosing the persons that does not influence me to work even more or get me stressed.

Sorry for my bad english, but hope you got the point..

We only live once so use that life carefully! Take care of yourself inside out. Be with the important ones, and live. Let the mind rest and enjoy life behind media, on the other side. Go on adventures, when it is possible go on vacation and travel without the phone. Be with your friends and family for real, do not watch tv or the phone. Forget work and live. That is what I am telling me, every day. Life is beautiful and worth living. I do not want to remember my time,

Specially when I am young and still healthy, as an over-stressed or overworking.. With no time for living/enjoying the small things in life, like the sunset or smell of fresh coffee, enjoying the seasons, and training at the gym..feeling the muscles work and playing with my dog outside on the garden, watching how happy she is and realizing how fast she grows. Suddenly she is turning 2 years!!!